
We knew this move would be hard. While it's absolutely WONDERFUL to be so close to family finally, we are still adjusting to our new "home."
Having lived in California for over 10 years it makes sense. I've never lived anywhere for longer than 4 or 5 years at a time. But having gone to college, then getting married and having our babies in California... it really made it feel like home. I knew where everything was in Redding. I had a wonderful community of friends, a great church, and resources galore.
These past few weeks have been hard, especially with David still in California working. The kids ask for him constantly. And they ask for their friends in California and even their house! And because I'm trying to start a new daycare business and take care of them, it's been very overwhelming. My parents and sisters visit very regularly and are a huge help with the kids- I really don't know what I would've done without them.
It seems to hit the hardest at night, when the kids are tucked into bed and I've cleaned the house and it's just 8:30 or 9:00 at night. That's when I start to really miss David, and California and the familiarity of everything there.
This will sound silly, but I LOVE finding my American channels w/ the familiar shows and commercials on TV. I love walking into Safeway or the Super Walmart because they have the exact same lay-out as the ones in CA. It's not that there isn't an over-abundance of places to shop here- there is a HUGE variety compared to what we had in little Redding. I'm LOVING Ikea, Superstore, and the many many malls to choose from.
The part that will be the hardest to adjust to is finding friends like the ones we had in Redding. That is the part of my heart that feels the most empty. Right now it feels almost impossible, but I know in time it will happen.
Despite the pity party above, I am so thankful that we are here. We love our house. David will be here soon. The daycare is slowly but surely filling up. It's amazing to have family so close. And I know everything else will fall into place. I think that I will always have a part of me that misses California, just like I continue to miss Africa to this day! It just takes time and slowly all those missing parts fall into place, creating a new home. And I know that will happen for us here.
